Wedding Singer??

Well who can think of me as a wedding singer?....Definitely not myself, but yesterday I did just that and it turned out really well.

Yesterday was the wedding of one of my mom's friends. It was a cute and simple wedding, nothing big. Well, along with an invitation to the wedding, she asked me to sing a song for her wedding as well. I ended up singing On top of the world- by yours truly. :) I was a bit nervous but I got over it and did a good job for her. I never thought i'd actually be singing at a wedding, but you can never picture yourself doing a lot of things till you actually do it. lol

Overall I'm glad I got the chance to do it and would totally do it again. And oh, the dancing we all did after was great too!! I didn't want to stop, I could've kept going for awhile. My sister was telling me to tone it down at one point because i was moving my hips way to much for this crowd, but when I can started i really don't know how to tone it down. ;D

I was also complimented for my tie. I bought a whole suit for the wedding since I really didn't have one to wear, but i think the most outstanding part of my get-up was my tie. It's like a neon green color. Very bright, eccentric, and awesome!!! I wore all black so that tie can just shine and so it was. I love that tie. :D

And well that's it with last night's wedding story.

Be sure to tune in next time when our very handsome hero battles space invaders to save the lives of the people he swore to protect.....Yes I know that was very corny but what can i say, that's just me. lol :DD

Heyyy

Heyyy you.. Yea you, skittles. I figured you'd read this so I thought I'd say hi. Soo HI. :P

The beginning of something. We'll find out what..

Well I think it's safe to say she likes me. She really likes me, and I like her. I sang the song i wrote for her after a concert we had at our church and it made her entire night. She says no one has ever done that for her, and in my mind i was saying, i figured as much. lol But yea, she has a huge crush on me, everyone tells me that. Even the pastora of our church is in on our little romantic adventure and she's all for us because she loves me and thinks I'll be very good for her. Everyone in the church seems to be great with it. It's pretty awesome to have everyones back on this. :DD

Everyday we talk a bit more and more. And I've known her for only a short time and I already have two items of mine in her memory box. I think this entire situation is really cute. I like to separate myself from everything for a bit and look at it from a different persons perspective. I must say I find myself smiling every time I do.

With both of us crushing on eachother and everyone pushing us along trying to help us out, even though I think she and I are old enough to help ourselves in this matter, I have yet to kiss her. I have yet to want to kiss her too even though I know she'd let me. I'm not the type of guy that wants be in a thousand different relationships with a thousand different women, I'm not the player, or the heart breaker, or the pimp. I'm just the nice guy that wants to find the one girl for his entire life. I want real love. And i know that if you want real love you have to start things right. Love and life, right and wrong, it's not just emotion or your own perception of it. Love is something real, righteousness is something real, it's something that stays constant no matter what you may think 'right and wrong' is, or what you may think 'love' is. And I believe the bible preaches that truth very well. I believe love is what the bible says it is because in my short existence I've lived and learned...

But yea, excuse my little speech there. lol What I'm trying to say is that I just want to be her best friend for a bit. I want to chill with her and go out without the thought of being romantic, just the thought spending time with her. I've screwed up and made many mistakes and I don't want to be a fool and repeat them. I'm taking things slow and with one step at a time. If she's the one for me, she can be patient along with me. 'Love is patience' amongst many other things, so yea. lol I believe she is willing to wait though. She left another guy for me so I would imagine she is willing.

So yea, I can't think anymore. If i continue it's going to be like blah blah blah. lol

Goodnight peeps.

Damn it's been awhile...

Damn it has been an extremely long time since I've been here to write anything. lol Well I figure since I'm here I'll just fill you in on some of the stuff I've been up too.
I've been keeping myself real busy with music, since there's nothing else I have to do. It gets boring not having a lot of responsibilities, I can't wait till I'm actually overloaded with stuff to do and places to go for a change. DX
But anyways yea, music is what has been occupying my time. I have a total of 10 songs now, one of them being this epic battle between god and the devil. It's pretty cool, and everyone who has heard says its awesome so I'll take their word for it. lol
Oh and I've also written this other song called Golden Angel. It's for this really awesome girl I met at church. We haven't hung out to much but we did get to have some dinner last sunday and we had a real nice time. Ohh and the reason I named the song golden angel is because when I first met her, there was an event in my church and she completely dressed in gold paint and clothing while she danced. She's literally a golden angel. Cool huh? lol
So yea, I've been staying alive writing songs and keeping to my music, and now hopefully winning over this girls heart. ;D
We'll see what happens with my not so busy schedule and love life. I'll keep you posted..or maybe not..lol
See ya!

Our 2nd Anniversary!!

Wow it's been awhile since I've written anything, and lots of things have happened since I last did. But I think I'll start with this day. December 19, 2010

My anniversary with Ashley was on the 19th. 2 years peoples, 2 years!! It's pretty crazy how far we've come. It has not been easy let me tell you that. First we had to fight with the outside world that first year. So many challenges and hardships faced us. We were smacked around quite a bit, so much that I broke up with her for reasons that I can't stand by anymore. But she took me back when I realized how much I can't be without her.

From there we pressed on to our 2nd year which was a bit different really. Instead of having to fight off the outside world, we fought within our world. In the 2nd year we were together things between my mom and Ashley calmed down. As a matter a fact, my mom is actually turning out to need my girlfriend quite a bit for fashion and health reasons. B) But while that storm calmed, another came up. The 2nd year has been one of arguments between each other, especially the last few months. It hasn't been easy for us at all. Lots of emotional conflicts and battles have been fought within these 2 years, and a few physical ones to..sorry about the eye again. D:

But amongst all the fights and bad times, we made it this far. Besides all the unfortunate things that have happened between us, we pulled through it, we made many exciting and simply awesome memories, and we celebrated our 2nd anniversary together. It was a beautiful day, just Ash and I being us, the strange yet simple couple amongst all the rest.

The first year was a fight against our world, the second year was a fight within our world, and now we're moving on to the third year..I hope the past 2 years has covered all necessary fights. I don't know how the third will be, but I know we will make it through and simply grow to new heights together like we have already done. I hope we have many many more anniversaries together. B)

I love her very much.

Fun fact of the day: The first actual song I ever wrote was to Ashley. And from there on every other song I have written has been about her, except one which was to my grandfather.

She is literally the reason why I sing. She is my inspiration and my motivation to do anything. I've always complained that I had no drive for anything, I've wished for some inspiration to drive me to become something in this world. I can't complain anymore, I have everything i need when I hold her. I have all the love and inspiration I need to keep moving, and grow to be the man I should be. I didn't know for what reason, but now it's clear my reason is for her.

So back to my report on the day, it was great. We ate at hooters, that's just the way we roll ;D then we walked around the stores in search of a christmas present for me, we walked around some more and exchanged our anniversary gifts to each other, which was a ton of fun I might add. I made Ash search for her gift which she enjoyed just as much as i did :D and Ash gave me a list of 365 reasons she loves me..that's just awesome!! How many of you have one of those?? I bet none of you. :D I thought the list was wonderful, it made me tear and everything, actually me tearing up about the list was in the list, amazing huh?

But after that fun gift exchange it was getting dark so we scurried our way through the streets and made it just in time to catch the bus that was taking us back to her place. It was impeccable timing i tell you, as soon as we got to the stop the bus arrived. We've always had good timing and luck like that, it's pretty awesome. Then when we got her place we took it easy and just pretty much relaxed the remainder of the night.

And oh!!!! How can I miss this part?? I was thinking about it in the middle of this blog too.. :/ Well anyway Ash found a four leaf clover!!! It was crazy finding one. She started to search for one randomly in a patch of dirt on a short wall and didn't find one, and then she said that she had never found one before before she reached into the second patch of dirt and pulled out a four leaf clover. How perfect is it to find a four leaf clover on our anniversary? And in the most unlikely of places. She was pretty happy about that, and i wasn't to to surprised that she found one, she has this amazing knack for finding things like sales, omg especially sales lol ;P she also finds things left on buses and trains, it's crazy, but it's her and I love it. :)

So I think that will be all for now. This blog was going to be a general blog, not about anything specific, but when I started to write about our anniversary I just couldn't stop. lol So this will be all for now till the next one.

P.S. I love you! B)

Sincerely,

Your Baracuda

Good times!!

So, the last few days has been amazing. Relationship wise. Ashley and I have been getting along great and have been all smiles, something we haven't really been for awhile.

Let me fill you in on what's happened before these past few days. Ash and I have been going through a lot of rough patches for the past couple months, and it has only gotten worse as time past. We wouldn't really talk about anything, and we'd get into an argument about any little thing. It has been very tiring to be honest, and Ash will agree with me. In the past couple weeks a lot of things have been said, a lot of horrible things, and I'm sure a lot of horrible thoughts have come up as well. It's just been one thing after another and it seemed like we would never get out of that. The past few weeks has been a battle field between us because of a lot of things. I've done nothing but get on her nerves, and vice versa. To say the least it's been scary, tiring, aggravating, very rough, closed hearted, and horrible.

But in life you will always have your hard times. In life there will come times of hardship, apathy, unwillingness, heart break, terror, and many other things. But you can't just give in and throw in the towel when those times come. It's the same exact thing with love. Love is not just happy and easy times. Love is hard, and requires desire, and dedication. When those times come is when you have to love the hardest. Ash and I have gone through a lot lately, but we love each other very much. Just because we've fought and told each other many things, and done a lot of things that have hurt, doesn't we will put up our white flag and call it quits. True love can with stand the storm, and love can find it's way back out of it.

What I feel for her is not just something that depends on circumstances, or time, or place, what I feel for her leans on nothing and stands on it's own. I love her no matter what. We fight, we make mistakes, and sometimes we even hate each other. But no matter what I love her. At the end of each passing day that fact will remain the same.

And now, after everything we've gone through, it seems like things are calming down between us. The past few days we've got along fabulously, we've been able to actually talk, and we haven't been on each other's nerves attacking each other for every little thing. And yesterday, oh man it was the best of these past few days.

After Ash finished school we planned that she would take the bus to dolphin mall and I'd pick her up there so we can work out at the park for a bit. That's exactly how it happened. I picked her up at the bus stop and we headed back home where this really nice chicken, mashed potato, and biscuit meal was waiting for us. We ate the food and after sitting around for a little bit we drove over to the park with my sister tagging along with us.

First we started out by stretching a bit, and then we jogged 2 laps around the park path. Well that's a lie, I jogged 2 laps while Ash and Ally jogged half a lap, walked the other half a lap, and then sat down while I finished my second lap. lol But it's alright cause Ash was pretty sore already from having to carry her freagin heavy bags all over downtown. They were really heavy man, for real. Well anyways, after that we dedicated the rest of the time doing abs. It hurt, and it wasn't easy, but we did it. Well I did it, Ash and Ally attempted..lol Again, she had a good excuse so it's alright. After we decided we've had enough of ab workouts, we played a little soccer before leaving the park after the sun had set and darkness fell over us. I thought it was fun, it hurt, but I really enjoyed working out with them and working on my stomach. Ash says I'm getting fat and I've lost my muscle, so we'll see what she says after a few weeks of doing this exercise. ;D

So after that we went home, hung around for a bit, did Ash's math work, ate some rice and pasta, hung around some more, and finally left so I can drop her off at home. When we got there at her place I parked in the parking lot and there we sat in the car, with no sound but the sound of our voices. We sat there for awhile just talking, well whispering to each other, and staring at each other. It was so wonderful. The time we spent there was most time we've spent truly together just talking in long time. Ash commented on how much she liked it when we can just whisper to each other in silence. She said how much she loves to just hear me speak to her, tell her things, and share what I'm feeling with her. I must agree that it's simply wonderful. Even after we finally got out of the car and walked up to her place with her freagin heavy bags, we talked some more and shared a great time together before I left.

I hope this just marks a new time for us. A time where we finally get out of the storm we were in and get back to the amazingness of our love for each other. Get back into wonderful and beautiful times like last night. I just have to try not to piss her off, and she has to stay sweet more often. :P lol I loved last night, I love the good times we have ahead of us, and most of all I love my girl!! I'm madly in love, and I only fall deeper and deeper. Feels good. :D

It's way to late for this...Oh well.

So it's 2 o' clock in the morning. The only sound I can hear is of my fingers typing on the computer. And all of my family snoring..lol I have no idea why I'm writing this blog, but I started it so I guess I should say something right?

It's really peaceful that's for sure. Knowing everyone in this house is in their own little world while I share the real world with myself for a bit. At least, the world within these walls I call my home. It's nice to take time to be alone, and meditate for awhile. Think about everything that's going on in my life. It's kind of hard to do that while everything is moving around me, while things are happening within only moments at a time. When everything is silent, I feel like time is standing still, like the world has stopped for a brief moment giving me time to collect myself and then continue working in the morning.

When the world does stop for that moment, take a breath. Let the air fill your lungs and let your mind be free for change. I don't know about you but a lot of things flood my thoughts all the time. After awhile those thoughts become heavy and weigh you down. It happens to me. I become filled with problems, doubts, worries, terror, anger, confusion, apathy, and distress. Do you think I, or anyone for that matter, can continue moving forward properly like that? With all that baggage of past troubles and concerns? I'm going to assume your answer is no. If you continue that way you may end up becoming many things like: angry, frustrated, scared, overwhelmed, or maybe even apathetic towards everything. It's not good when you become so tired you just don't care anymore. So stop for a moment in the silence. It can be very amazing. And who knows, maybe in that quiet place of your own you will find the answer you need to fix the problems that weigh you down. If you do come up with anything, be sure to let me know. I'd like to hear it.

Well I think its time for me to go to bed now, I want to actually wake up in a few hours and not be completely dead. Have a goodnight in your own little world.

PS. I love you.